Life is full of contraditions and pain, but full of wonder and amazement.  It never fails to amaze me how fragile our minds and hearts can be when it comes to emotions of anger, curiosity, lust or love.  Curiosity is a contradition in itself, because it can leave you bewildered and wondering what would have happened if you had not followed your wonder.  Lust is a temptation that we have to train ourselves to control, but is amazing to be able to be with someone where lust is just a bonus instead of a hinderance.  Anger is something that even though i try not to feel, impatience and sensitivity always encourage it.  And love, the one feeling that is amazing to feel...as long as it is reciprocated.  I realized today that when you are happy you surround youself with things/objects that remind you of the great sides of these emotions, but with one wrong turn  you are scrambling to put them away, take down pictures so they dont cause tears, and hide your eyes to the things that once made your heart flutter, but now make it feel like it is breaking in your chest.  Pain is something everyone tries to avoid, and i dont understand how people can go out of their way to hurt others.  There are so many things that help "enable" us to not feel pain, alcohol, pills, drugs, or sex...but the pain is still present, just masked by the fake emotions you trick your brain into feeling for for that short time, you dont have to feel the pain that hurts so much that you cant even think.

Random thoughts
J Pizzle

you just have to realize that you have to cherish everyone in your life, and if you dont, then its your loss

Do you just let friends you love go????...or go out of your way to tell them your side?  If they just drop you...should you just let them see for themselves how people can fuck them over...or try to save them?  Are you the person to show them?..or just let them firgure it out?